Society of A Devil 

Go ahead say I’m being hypocritical- I don’t care. I just got off the phone with one of my best friends who feels like absolute crap because of society and I’m sharing with you how I feel because I want to make an IMPACT on someone. 

So, this is what I’ve realized about high school and just life in general- everyone feels absolutely so utterly emotionally and physically exhausted and alone. We feel like we can’t please anyone, or gain momentum, get to the top. But for what? To please other people? To gain fake friends we hope to keep for the 4 years of our lives? 

High school is a time when girls are plain old mean. Everyone is selfish. Boys want nothing but sex from you and most days you fall asleep feeling like absolute crap. 

But what I’ve come to see is that the only people who can change how we treat each other is us. You can’t change everyone around you, but you can change yourself. You can learn to be accepting, empathetic, loving, kind, a listener, to be there for people. To be there and to tell your story so people don’t feel so alone. Thats why I try to reach out to so many people. I am so thankful that god has let people come into my life whether it being through school, family, instagram, tumblr, facebook etc. because the more people who know, have the chance to read my writing and hear things from another person.

What I’ve realized is that half of me wants that magical life on the Upper East side of New York with ball gowns and Bloomingdale shopping bags. With money and vacation houses and everything I could want. Who doesn’t honestly? But that life is so shallow and yet I live a form of it every day. I go to a high school where money is basically who you are. Believe it or not I don’t have that much money, and as I say that, I once again feel so fake and unappreciative because I have so much more than the other 99% of this world. We live in the top 1% of wealth. As American’s even our “poor” are rich, filthy rich, And all we seem to want is more more more. For what? So in the end we can see that money can’t buy happiness? To realize that all of these things are the devil playing us and toying with what really matters.

Friends are worth it. Relationships are worth it. Life is worth it. Not for the things and stuff it brings. Not for the clothes and houses. But what it has to offer with people and feelings and the absolute best happiness you get from laughing. Yes, you need materialistic things to live. Obviously you need a home and clothes and food and shelter. And I’m not saying if you have a lot of it that in any way something is wrong with you or bad. Clearly the people who have those things have worked their butts off to get them and I praise that! But APPRECIATE it. Give to the the people who have less. Value your life, your health, your family, your friends. We have it so much better then so many other people in the world. So don’t expect what you have, love it and love others.  

Life changes and throws you curve balls. Things are really hard and we don't always understand why. We want to give up. But show the world that we are not falling apart. Show the world we are coming together and we can be better then before. You loose friendships you thought you would always have, people who would always be in your life. I've come to know that the people who give up on you and leave you behind aren't accepting of your beauty. So don't go running after them. Don't even look back. Keep moving forward and gather all the people who love and support you because in the end they will matter more. 

I read this in a book I'm reading in school Called The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde. I believe this quote sums up how I think life is lived and I forever will refer to this quote. Who knew school actually applied to something I will carry on with me in life. 

"Those who find ugly meanings in beautiful things are corrupt without being charming. This is a fault. Those who find beautiful meanings in beautiful things are cultivated. For there is hope." 

-Oscar Wilde 

Life is worth it. Go out and prove yours. 

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M O O N S H I N E

      
       Sometimes when I'm having a hard day or feel lost I grab a fuzzy blanket, climb out my window and sit on the wood panels of my roof. I lay on my back and look up at the stars in the night sky and see the moon shining brightly down. The moon is a such a phenomenon to me. It's mind blowing how such a small part of life has the ability to cast such a bright light on a world of darkness. No matter how stormy or cloudy it gets the moon prevails to be noticed and never goes away. Some days its bigger than others, it will show its full circle and light up the ghostly forest paths; other days just a crescent is seen and the moon choses to keep his beauty to himself. 
The moon is metaphorically every person in the world. I believe that each person has a heart of gold from the beginning, however the darkness of society can set in and take away their true colors. Some people stand out more then other's. One may walk into a room and everything lights up- they bring a bright energy that is contagious. We all have it inside ourselves but it's up to you to choose if it is seen. 
So go outside and get some fresh air. Look at the beauty in the stars and the moon and know that you can shine equally as bright and don't let the dark shadows overcome you. We all look at the same sky and really are not that different from one another. Find your place and exceed, allowing yourself to light up even brighter than before.

Getting Back in the Groove

-LOVELIES-

            Yes, my blogging is long overdue which many of you have ceased to remind me through messages on tumblr, comments on instagram and what not- I think its really important to make sure that I am out fully living my life before I take time out of it to write. Life is about putting yourself out there and experiencing it all which is most important. I have to take care of my life before I can post it. I am super sorry it’s taken me so long! I promise to blog more for you all as long as you keep reading:)

I have a lot to catch you up on so here is an overview of things I plan to post soon in no order:

-Blogs/pictures about my Snowball Dance

-Passion Pit Concert 

-Food and my own recipies (a lot of you have been asking for like my health tips and eating routines, do you still want that?) 
-DIY Section: I do a lot of crafty things and make my own shorts which people have asked about 
-Room tour/how I re-did it
-Video answering all my tumblr inbox questions 

-I’ve been thinking about getting a twitter, possibly making youtube videos and some other things but I have no clue! I barely have time for the things in my life already


I want to possibly make a new blog on weebly but don't know what to do.... I am asking you, my readers and followers to please help me make decisions! You're the viewer and I love to hear what you all think!

     Please tell me what you guys want the most from me! xo

Swinter

Song that was literally perfect for this day- "She's just waiting on the summer time when the weathers fine" Dreams Be Dreams by Jack Johnson http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7ePIeUQ4BSU

Personal Update

 Sorry for the lack of posting beauties:( School seems to want to take up all my time these past few days and I've just been crazy busy!! Last week I asked my best friend Charlie to Snowball, my winter formal dance, it was a lot of fun to surprise him. I've been trying to find a dress and get everything ready for that which has been super stressful. I ordered a dress online last week and it came a few days ago. I was super bummed out to open the box, zip it up and realize that I didn't like it at all... so the search goes on. I need to hurry cause it's this saturday. Clearly I'm very prepared except I'm probably the biggest procrastinator you'll meet.

Like I've mentioned before, I'm in Senate at my school and were planning this big 

fundraiser called Wish Week, I'm sure some of you have it at your schools. It's a super amazing week Senate puts on to raise money for two people. This year its a little girl with leukemia and her dream is to go to Disney World, and then an old lady with ahlzimers who wants to ride in a hot air balloon. Oh my gosh, so adorable. But any how, there's a bunch of really cool events that we put on and themed dress up days and such. I'm excited to see how it all turns out because I've put so much time and effort into it. Next week if I'm not posting much know thats what's taking up most of my time on top of school and social stuff etc. If I'm not posting please don't get discouraged or annoyed, I'm trying my absolute best! I never want to let my readers down:)

Music Pouring through my Winter Window

      Before I fall asleep at night in the winter, I slowly slide open my bedroom windows letting all the crisp air in. The glass shakes from the cold and the white wood lets out a loud scream when peeled back. A wave of cold oxygen floods into my room like rushing water in a rivers drop. The temperature stings my cheeks and my nose turns into a deep amaranth pink color. I close my eyes and take a deep breath. The draft tickles my eyelashes and goose bumps crawl over my skin. I clench my floor length curtins around the window pane but the wind catches them and blows them through my room. They dance in the wind and cast shadows on the wall that look like the delicate sugar plum fairies right off the Nutcracker stage. I quickly tip-toe to my bed and snuggle under the warm blankets and fresh linened sheets. I am now warm in a frigid place that is full of unknown creatures and piercingly cold air.

5 Favorite Songs of the Day:
1. Everything's Okay by Lenka //www.youtube.com/watch?v=HkY_BksDUxo
2. 1940 (Amplive remix) by The Submarines http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tGKaPCewPiY
3. Wish I Stayed (Acoustic Version) by Ellie Goulding http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZY78asVr0CI
4. Heads Will Roll (A-Trak Remix) by the Yeah Yeah Yeahs
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1VQj7ccvhuU
5. Santa Monica Dream by Angus and Julia Stone http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zMUJpdj4fV8

Fresh n' Fruity

Some people have asked me on Tumblr and Instagram if I can post kind of like healthy foods, snacks, and what I do to stay fit so I guess I'll try and go for it!
Tuesday I had a sweet healthy snack which was raspberry mango organic sorbet with cut up fruit! I love doing this when I'm in the mood for something sweet because it replaces the taste of a unhealthy candy bar or fatty ice cream. Its good for you and will probably make your day a little sweeter too! Eating healthy makes your skin brighter and clearer, gives you more energy and helps you focus harder.

Eat well. Look well. Feel well.